Even though I’m slightly enjoying this fake relationship, it still feels weird. Unnatural. Maybe it is because it’s not actually natural so it makes sense, but even so. I miss the “naturalness” I had with cute. But he is a giant douchebag and I am honestly tired of the bullshit. Exhausted.
Forever is over and my heart is not gonna break.
When a song is so good that you can physically feel your heart breaking with every note.
(See: Cher Lloyd’s rendition of Stay by Shakespeare’s Sisters on XFactor 2010)
+Why should I feel ashamed? Feeling guilty at the mention of your name.. Here we are again, it’s nearly perfect..
+Going to sleep with some weird kind of unrealistic and unbelonging peace of mind. I haven’t felt like that in ages. I don’t even know what to do with it.
+“Flower gleam and glow, let your power shine, make the clock reverse, bring back what once was mine.. Heal what has been hurt, change the fate’s design, save what has been lost, bring back what once was mine..
What once was mine.”
I am not sure of how I’m still alive. I am so confused and undecided that’s even painful. Agonizing.
+It’s a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat.
+Jesus goddamn christ in a pretty little flowery bicycle I AM GOING TO FUCKING DIE
DIE
DIE
Oh damn it
“Phone rings, don’t wanna pick it up; I’m so scared I’m gonna say too much. Tip toe around your questions, why you gotta dig so deep? Tears fall, and the glasses break, inside these walls the floor boards shake, from outside it’s alright, as long as you’re looking from fifty feet. I’ve been trying trying to hold my head up high, I’ve been lying lying, keeping it all inside, trying not to trust you yeah, take another leaf of my book yeah yeah. I’m done, I give up, I don’t wanna pretend no more. That’s it, so what, I’ve lost a friend before. I’m gonna say it like it is, no more wondering what if, that ain’t the way you oughta live. Cause I don’t want you to love me, if you don’t wanna love me for me..
A doll house is all that you can see, but it’s so far from my reality. I’ve got problems, I’ve got issues, sometimes it’s all too much for me. Wrap it up with a pretty little bow, but there’re some things you can’t sugarcoat; give it to you anyways, even though it won’t taste so sweet. I’ve been trying trying to hold my head up high, I’ve been lying lying, keeping it all inside, maybe I could trust you yeah, take another leaf of my book yeah yeah. I’m done, I give up, I don’t wanna pretend no more. That’s it, so what, I’ve lost a friend before. I’m gonna say it like it is, no more wondering what if, that ain’t the way you oughta live. Cause I don’t want you to love me, if you don’t wanna love me for me..
Sick of all the fighting, all the slamming of the doors; the pain, the parents, too deep you know. Step back, step back, can you see it through my eyes? I know, I know, maybe a surprise. Don’t wanna be perceived as something that I’m not, just wanna be accepted for the little that I’ve got. If you could see me now in my glass house, not ready to let you in.. I’m done, I give up, I don’t wanna pretend no more. That’s it, so what, I’ve lost a friend before. I’m gonna say it like it is, no more wondering what if, that ain’t the way you oughta live. Cause I don’t want you to love me, if you don’t wanna love me for me..”
I don’t like Justin Bieber, but I like One Direction, which is pretty much the same but five times more embarrassing, because One Direction is like Justin Bieber times five. But I don’t really care because FUCK YOU THAT’S WHY
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